You messed up. Bad.
You need to confess to your loved ones. You need to confess to God.
Will they forgive you?
Will you forgive yourself?
Will you stand again and move on?
How long will you beat yourself up?
If God says your forgiven, aren’t you?
Let it go and move. (and give yourself a break)
46 You did not put oil on my head, but she has poured perfume on my feet. 47 Therefore, I tell you, her many sins have been forgiven—as her great love has shown. But whoever has been forgiven little loves little.”
48 Then Jesus said to her, “Your sins are forgiven.”